perhaps i'm just tired. period.
i can't imagine that it has been 8 months since i came to the states, it doesn't seem that long to me. Time does fly indeed and in no time, i'll be finished with my studies and heading back home. I can't say if i'm dreading to go home or not but i want to explore the rest of the world first before contending with a stable job back home for the next decade or so.
I forgot if i ever told
you my 2 cents worth about the situation/fixes, i'm in a much saner state of mind now to say that not everyone is identical to you, perhaps that's the reason why people become friends in the first place. Sure, even best friends have their tiffs, let alone classmates who cannot stand each other's idiosyncrasies. It's probably too selfless to keep giving yourself to others and not expecting anything back coz it seems you're always at the losing end. In time to come, when you reflect on the past and ask yourself what went wrong, at least you would be able to pat yourself on the back and tell yourself that you tried. Friends who come and go, those who remain by your side, are all people who make you stronger or bring you down. You gotta live and learn. That's the game of life.
Sometimes i may seem nonchalant while other times i may be overzealous. But i only try. To those who seem to fall behind, do i wait for them patiently or move on? I guess at the end of the road, i can be honest to myself that i have been a good friend to many. Even if i may not be sincerely true to myself; for the sake of others, i'm willing to give myself more than i take. That's just me.
shouted by yell @
3:51 PM
